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6/4/25 - ONE OF THE BEST THINGS EVER

HI EVERYONE. SO . a few days ago, i FINALLY built up the courage to get a cameo from David Menkin (the voice actor of rayman in captain laserhawk!!!!!!) and. im going to see it now! but im shaking in excitement a LOT so im gonna wait five minutes to calm down and then watch it :3 ,, ive been wanting to do this for over a year, since like, march last year!!!!!! and it took a WHILE to build up the courage but i finally managed to do it! i didnt watch it yet, but im going to now!!!!!! the next paragraph will be from after,,,,,,, SEE YA!!!!!! ^_^

ok im about to pless play,,,,, ASGHFJGHFGHFLGHASHGJFDSJGHLSFDGHASDFGAHSFDGALHFGJFBAFKDJHJCBKVNZ,BC,NBXZNBVZ ok NEXT paragraph will be from after

im back. that was the best thing ever. i kid you not, i started sobbing tears of happiness. oh my god. i cant stop smiling im genuinely so incredibly grateful and happy and joyous and whimsical and ASGKHLHLSHJKAHJKGASJHFHJAK !11!!111!1 !! !!11 WORDS. CANNOT DESCRIVE HOW HAPPY I AM RIGHT NOW IM LITERALLHK FKNSD NJKNKJLGSJNFDKLFJGKNVGHLDJNGSFLJDS;INVGS IM SO HAPPY IM SO WHIM SICAL AND FULL OF JOY AND

5/4/25 - MINECRAFT MOVIE MIDDLE AGED MAN YAOI (MINECRAFT MOVIE SPOILERS AHEAD)

TODAY I WATCHED THR MINECRAFT MOVIE WITHJ MY FRIENDS AT THE CINEMA !!!!!11 IT WAS. UNIRONICALLY SO GOOD. the plot is really basic but i dont CARE!! i loved it and i thought it was a silly fun movie :3 i thought the graphics were really good!! originally, when i saw the first trailer, i thought the animals looked kinda uncanny, but they became super likeable as the other trailers came out!!!!! :-D the villagers are such cutie pies i love them

ALSO it was such a silly cinema experience in the best way possible; everyone applauded when steve appeared and said 'i.. am steve.' + we also applauded at the technoblade bit which i thought was so sweet!! (rest in peace!),, we also applauded when alex made an appearence in the post credits scene!!!!! also, as youd imagine, the chicken jockey bit. dear lord. one of my friends YELLED it. EVERYONE PROBABLY HEARD HER. love her though shes so silly :P

so. i wasnt expecting the romantic tension between steve and garrett but i love them so much. they are IN LOVE and MARRIED i will DIE ON THIS HILL!!!!!!!DUDE. THE SCENE WHEN THEY WERE FLYING MID-AIR WAS INSANE. ME ANF MY GIRLFRIEND WERE LOOKING AT EACH OTHER WITJH OUR JAWS DROPPED. THEY WERE FULL ON 69ING??????? MID-AIR. ok so maybe not LITERALLY because this is a literal kids movie but YOUD GET WHAT I MEAN IF YOU SAW THE SCENE. AND. AND! STEVE LITERALLY GIVES GARRETT A NICKNAME AFTER A FEW HOURS OF KNOWING EACH OTHER/!?!?!!?1/ 'GAR-GAR'. GAR-GAR. DUDE. THEY ARE BOTH IN LOVE. I SWEAR. ALSO. ALSOALSOALAALLASLSOALSOOOOOO!!!! THEY NEARLY KISSED LIKE SEVERAL TIMES. DID YOU SEE HOW CLOSE THEIR HEADS WERE SEVERAL TIMES. OH MY GOD!??!!?!???!! old man minecraft yaoi......,,

sorry for yapping about them. i could takl about them for hours im not kidding. . i didn t know thr minecraft movie had old man yaoi

3/4/25 - april already,,

how is it already april O_O"

31/3/25 - this happens like every week :-(

sometimes i HATEEEEEEE interacting with people dude idk why i just wanna #sleep

23/3/25 - I MISS MY GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!!

mmissing my wife, .,,.,.,.., i miss her i canvt wait 2 see her!!!!! i love her so much shes so awesome n sweet and I MISS HER!!111!!!1

12/3/25 -

someday i will be a distant memory and i dont care.

9/3/25 - lucky star dance ^_^

idk why but i get really embarrassed whenever i try to practise a dance routine (or what have u) even when im alone in my room !! X_X" BUT!! today i finally decided to start practising 'Motteke! Sailor Fuku' (the lucky star song/dance :3) i watched lucky star a lot of times so ive kinda memorised it, but i actually started to dance it today! tbh, its actually pretty awkward when ur just practising a dance alone in ur room, with no sounds apart from the song T_T" its a bajillion times better than practising a dance in a room full of ppl tho!! XD i just wanted to try learning the dance because it seemed so fun to do + the music is a banger >:3!!!!!

2/3/25 - i have literally no idea dude

im so embarrassed rn because i started crying in front of my mom after i remembered my OLD MINECRAFT PETS. dude i was bawling so hard that she had to literally reassure me that the animals from the funny block game were being cared for by steve and alex 😭 😭shes so sweet i love her but im forever embarassed ,, then again im nearly on my period so that explains a lot LMAO

is it silly that i find the thought of steve and alex caring for my old minecraft pets nice?? PROBABLY!!!!!! do i care? PROBABLY NOT!!!!!!!!

so from now on, if you ever feel sad when you think about your old minecraft pets, just think that steve and alex r caring for them!!😼😼

25/2/25 - yapfest incoming!!!!!!

hey so remember that second (?) entry,, where i said i had a crush but i said id get over it in a week,, well. NO. i never got over it. i fell in love!!!!!!!!! AAHH!GH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok and it gets crazier. she was also in love with me.....HUH!!!!!!! /vpos. so a few days ago me n my awesome friends went out together (including her), and i could go on for hours about how amazing that day was!!11 before leaving home, she gave me a quick note before also leaving (her bus was almost there) asking to be girlfriends . i was freaking out!!!!11 (i was in public so i had to stay as casual as possible BUT.) eventually i caught up to her as she waited at the bus stop, i said YES!!11!11111!!!! and now we were BOTH freaking out!!!!! she gave me a letter and other really cute items, and A HUG. dude. ik this may not seem like much but to me a hug is literally everything. i was literally touch starved for YEARS and i finally got a hug after all these years. i dont wanna sound overdramatic but that meant the world to me !!!!! anyways, we both had to go to catch up with our bus/train, so once i got on my train, i read the letter, and i was holding in TEARS in the train,, ough,j. okkok so that was one of the best days ever (spongebob reference!!),, and ARGH theres so much more i could say but a couple days ago we both went out together and explored through a forest and it was so fun!!!!!11 yippee yipee e

16/2/25- ough

holy shit im a terrible person

NEVERMIND hiihihihihihhhhiiii quick edit like an hour later but . i feel whimsical rn anf i want to frollick through the fields again..,.., yipee!!1!11!1 yay

8/2/25 - whimsy

feeling so happyp rn . joyous even,.,.,.,,.,

19/1/25 - stickers!!!!! yay

HIHI SO!!!!! first entry of 2025 anf its nearly been three weeks T_T,, so a couple days ago one night (at like 2 or 3 am) i ripped out ALL the pages in my physical journal that had drawings on them, and restarted it. i spent the whole time decorating and writing in there,, i put WAY too many sanrio stickers but IDC IT WAS SO FUN!!!!!!!! :P

31/12/24 - 'hey patrick, yknow whats funnier than 2024?.. 2025!'

holy moly its the last day of 2024. what. huh. this year went by so fast, and tbh it was probably the worst year of my life, but i made some awesome friends :3 im really grateful for meeting such nice people, and finding a nice community !!!!! ^_^ it makes me genuinely so happy that people like my works and actually care,, i was so nervous of posting because i thought i was gonna get hate, but no! so thank you to all my mutuals and/or followers!!!!! ily all!!!11 /p

obviously a lot of bad things happened this year too. my mental health reached rock bottom and just as i thought it couldnt get any worse, i fell victim to 'really bad things' to say the least. i wont add on that any more. but (trying to) ignore all that, it was a good year for my art journey and other stuff!!

heres a list of lovely merch i got this year! :3

• rayman figure!!!!!
• madoka figure
• miku 'room wear' figure
• sans plushie
• miku 'world is mine' figure
• and ofc, my mama helped me make a plushie of charlie from smiling friends!!!!! i love tgis fella waooh

soooooo in conclusion, 1/2 was a shit year, and the other half was a comforting year, since i made a bunch of friends/moots >_<

28/12/24 - eepy

HIHI so today im going out with a few of my friends! ik i said we were gonna go yesterday but i thought it was saturday LMAO,, anyways im a bit nervous but i got enough sleep i think! also had a weird dream XD

27/12/24 - madoka figure for christmas!

i got a madoka figure for christmas!! i love her soso much and im so grateful :3 i slept the ENTIRE day yesterday (26th) cuz i stayed up the previous night X_X" i cant sleep now tho, obviously, but thats not rlly a good thing because me and a couple of my friends were gonna go out today, and i dont wanna be tired. its alr tho, im gonna probably take a nap before going ^^

24/12/24 - CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!!??

CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!!!! ive been making a christmas rayman art piece and its probably gonna be finished just in time for christmas!!!!! yippee!! idk why but does anyone else feel as if this this christmas isnt as christmasy as other christmases....... or am i just losing it

17/12/24 - stuff T_T

idk how but i just realised that christmas is shortly arriving..... WTF!! /POS im really excited, even tho im not gonna be doing anything :"0 okok BUT!rn im working on my shrines!! specifically spongebob's shrine, even tho i was planning to make raymans first XD,, thats probably because ive been rlly hyperfixated on it again for the last week ofihuhhhhhh T T im rewatching the spongebob musical AGAIN for like the fifth time i think rn while i code!

15/12/24 - new nick crowley upload yippee!!

HAI CHAT!! ok so i just finished CRYING my fucking eyes out,,,,, i was unable to cry for a while for some reason, so this is kinda 'refreshing', if thats the right word????? was i sobbing to music? YES. but i somehow feel better so yippee!1!1 anywayx, NICK CROWLEY POSTED!!!!!! i was SO happy!! nick crowleys content is soso awesome sauce i 1000000% recommend :33333,,

14/12/24 - boring day but SPONGEBOB MUSICAL HOORAY ^_^

hii hello!! :3c its 3am for me rn and ive been doing nothing but coding for the last 4 (?) hours!!!! X_X im taking a little break to write in here tho cuz why not!! ^_^

ok so i fell asleep LMAO but now im back and its kinda towards the end of the day! nothing really happened though,, i was planning to go out but i ended up staying home (X_X). maybe next time i guess. anyways, im rewatching the spongebob musical for the third or fourth time rn,, its so good i lobe the spgnoeebob musical!!!!! :3

13/12/24 - talking about thoughts ^w^

hihi this is my second diary entry on here!! whoopee!! today was another normal day, nothing rlly interesting.. T_T i started a new selfship drawing and im like halfway done hooray!!!!! ^_^ okok but dude. i have smth 2 tell u. i thinbk i have a crush,, idk but this is my first crush ever and SHE'S MY FRIEND!!!! 0_0 ive got NO idea what 2 do...... its alr tho, ill probably get over it in about a month TwT" soooooo ig thats all 4 now!! cya!! :Dc

HIHI IM BACK! its later in the day rn, and im pretty bored so im just gonna write in here! tbh, im kinda considering qutting tiktok. i dont really enjoy making edits anymore and the app is filled to the BRIM with hate. dont get me wrong, every social media is at least a bit toxic, but tiktok is ESPECIALLY just filled with misery,,,,,(and twitter but thats a whole other story T_T). i dont really wanna delete the app tho, cuz my friends send me stuff sometimes and i like looking at what they send me! also, i love seeing my mutual's videos - theyre all soso talented!!!!! i just dont think that ill really be that active :'3 i think it would make me happier, rather than constantly seeing things that i dont wanna see, if that makes any snese :'0

10/12/24 - first entry omg!!!!

FIRST POSSIBLE DIARY ENTRY ON HERE!1!1 :3 today was pretty ok; i did tons of drawing as usual (mainly just doodles of my OCs) and watched some nexpo :Dc for lunch i had pasta, and i didnt have dinner today o(>< )o,, rn its 3am (in my timezone), so i should probably get 2 sleep since i have school X_X, but i rlly wanna play some tomodachi life ngl........ oomfie taught me how 2 get the game on my laptop TY VRO!1!1 U KNOW WHO U ARE!1!1 okok thats it i guess!! (^_^) BYEBYEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!